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Bands/songs I love right now.

1. Headlines- Robert Shields
2. L-L-Love- Blondfire (pka Astaire)
3. Why Not- Voxhaul Broadcast
4. Call In The Cavalry- The Shys
5. Whatever- Iglu & Hartly
6. Single Sedative- Eastren Conference Champions
7. Can't Stop Diggin- Foolproof
8. Back to Black and Gold- Sam Sparro vs Amy Winehouse
9. Major and Minor- The Procession
10. Don't Stop- Interparty System
11. Lexington- Chiodos


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Grr... I love this new job and the amount of new music I see come through the door everyday is amazing. But now it seems like that is all I can think of (not that it wasn't before).

These are some of said awesomeness in music. Take a listen. I am pretty sure that even my music snob friends will like this...

Kate Nash. Straight out ta the UK... Brilliant songwritting. Listen to Merry Happy and Dickhead.

The Daylights. Just saw them tonight... Beautiful men, beautiful songs. Listen to Terra Firma.

Robert Shields. He is only 19! How can anyone be so talented at 19? Listen to The Solution.

Eastern Conference Champions. I listen to this everyday at work... Not joking. Listen to The Box and Single Sedative.

That should be good for now...

I got the best birthday present ever... a new job. I will be working in music publishing in just 2 short weeks. But as for now, I am still exhausted. Just trying to push through.

It was is my birthday as of midnight. I have been working here at Psychobabble, trying to get some reports in for WBR that are very late at this point. Tonight, I have the Format show... exciting, but I will be working it.

Last year, on this day, I was flying home from MN. I had talked to my mother the day before about how she was my age when she got married and had me... And today, a year later, I finally feel like my life is starting. I finally feel like I am on track with a career, great friends, and a nice apartment. What a difference a year makes! I will be getting my life back so I can go out, or just take some time to read Harry Potter. It is a nice feeling.

I wonder what the next year will hold for us all....

As Max Bemis of Say Anything said in "Try to Remember, Forget" (a song about his birthday):

"And in no time we'll be spread across the earth,
Donning business suits to show the faceless master what we're worth.
From our Huggies to Armani and it all seems so rehearsed.
So, I heave my breath at burning wax
cause i know that spark ain't coming back.
I heave my breath to burning wax
cause that spark ain't coming back.
It is my birthday."

Sad day.

This was taken from the rooftop of Suziey's building. Thanks to my beautiful models, Suziey and Zach, for the use of the backs of their heads.

I FINALLY got "We are Pilots" by Shiny Toy Guns.

I love this band. Yeah, as of now, I guess they are nothing new... Especially here in LA where they have been selling out shows for the last 2 years, but I am really digging the album. I had heard about them back when they were talking about signing to Sidecho Records in 05, but back then they only had the self released V1 of their album (they are now on V3 and signed to Universal). I love the dual singer, 80's inspired vibe... And not that I think it is revolutionary or anything, but it is fun... and I recommend it.

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If you haven't heard The Feeling, I feel sorry for you.

It may not be indie enough for most of you... But I saw these guys open for Mat Kearney about a week ago and off of a friends recommendation, I actually took a break from talking and listened. This british band sounds just as good live as they do on their CD (maybe even better). They were dead on on their harmonies, which always impresses me, especially when they were jumping around the stage putting on a fun show.

Once again, the hatespace.

Listen... Enjoy...

I liked this picture I took at the Swicthfoot show at the Avalon. Thought I would share it...

I'm tired.

Today I went for about a 4.5 mile hike in Griffith Park. (I saw a rattle snake. It scared me.) And tomorrow I am going on another 4 mile hike, cause I am bad-ass like that.
The view was beautiful. Since it was windy and it rained yesterday (Hello Seattle, I miss you. Thank you for letting your weather visit me for a day.), I could see all the way to Long Beach.. and the ocean. I listened to some Anberlin, Underoath, Acceptance, and Copeland. I cleared some thoughts out... or at least attempted. But I do feel better about a lot of things. I still really need a job. They cashed my rent check yesterday and my bank account nearly dropped in half. If I don't have something by the 15th of next month, I am not sure how I will be paying rent... and that scares the shit outta me.
Yesterday was nice. The rain felt so good and I smiled a lot. I talked to my friend Ashlee about baby names (she is 8 months pregnant) and about her upcoming wedding (no judging). I miss her. But it was good to catch up. I gave Elliot one of my Arrested Development Blueprints and I got to hang out and talk to him and Suziey for a while. Suziey has caught the sad bug, and I feel like I gave it to her... which makes me feel bad. Sometimes I am afraid that I stand in the way of my friends being truly happy... I stopped by David's and gave him an extra In Motion (Copeland's second CD) I found while I was cleaning. He had me listen to some of his music... which is beautiful. He is a very talented man. It was awkward listening to it though, cause I didn;t know what to say to him... other than I liked it. You know? He is going to burn me a copy of some of his work... I am sure it won't be long before I will know every word. That is just how I operate. We talked for a bit... like usual. I enjoy his company.
I went home and slept on my couch. I had all this motivation to clean the other day but everything just seemed to end up on my bed... and is sloooooowly being put away. This means that I have been sleeping on my couch for the last 3 nights. Good thing my couch is comfortable.
Anyway, this has become long, and I need a shower. Hope you all are well.

Love, Me.

I have been pretty depressed lately. I am still without work and there really aren't any good prospects in sight. I scower craigslist, entertainmentcareers, Warner, Sony, Universal... and I have probably sent out 70 resumes... and I have nothing. I feel super undesirable. And then I have matters of the heart and friendships weighing on me too. I feel like I have hit a low that I haven't been this close to since my accident over a year ago. It sucks. I am ready to be happy again... But I need to deal with some of the fucked up shit in my head first.
I know that my friends are only trying to help, but sometimes I feel like I am being judged for choices I have made or feelings I have. I guess I feel like my "friends" should be able to appreciate who I am and what I am trying to do and instead of making me feel worse, just be a support system and understand that now is a time I need to bitch about stuff... get it out and move on. I need to learn to let go... Which is probably the biggest lesson I will ever learn cause I carry things around a looooong time.
Suziey has a Dr Phil calendar (which on most days is the worst thing ever, but there was one day that I think Suz and I agree with) that says, don't listen to your friends when it comes to matters of the heart. I agree with that. I mean, honestly, one: sometimes you can't choose your feelings, two: who the fuck are they telling you how to feel anyway? I am sick of people telling me how to live my life. One person in particular, who really doesn't have any room to talk, is always trying to tell me what I need to do and which guys I should like... and him and I obviously have completely different taste in men.
Anyway, I am sorry that this isn't all candy and flowers, but it is my life. Call me emo, or whatever you wish (however, I would have to suggest that if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all... cause I could easily rip your head off next time I see you with the mood I have been in.) Life isn't always pretty and sometimes I just hate getting up and having to put that fucking smile on my face. Now is one of those times.

As of 7pm tonight, I no longer work for Bose Corporation.... I worked there 6 years, 3 months, and 26 days.

Now, I need to find another job... Wish me luck.

My friend Erika got a new job at Columbia in NY. She leaves the 19th... So last night was her going away party. I got down to the Cat and Fiddle around 9:30pm and parked in the free (metered) parking on Sunset and walked to the bar... Nice little place. What was nicer though is that Erika's old boss had the tab open to everyone in our party... and was ordering us drinks...

3 Newcastles and 2 shots of Patron Silver later... I was toasted. TOASTED. And this was only around 11pm. We played darts... I was punched in the boobs several times... And I managed to call Caitlin because Journey was playing (didn't know about this till I talked to her this evening). There are still times that I am unsure of what really happened.

I really wish I had brought my camera.

Add a couple more Newcastles and I was telling a friend of mine that he could have any of the girls in the bar if he wanted to... and eventually convinced him that he needed to drive me to Suziey's house cause I wasn't going to be able to make it home on my own. Luckily, he is a nice guy and made sure I got back okay. Suziey videotaped me at the coffee shop. I sent a couple of inappropriate text messages. Then finally, I went to bed at around 3 am at Suziey's place. I could barely sleep. My liver hurt. I woke up at around 9 am (having woke up about every 2 hours all night) and Suziey drove me back to my car...

Man oh man. Work sucked today. I can only dream of the day when I will actually be able to go out on the weekends like a normal person and not have the problem of having to deal with disgruntled customers all day at work the next day. Seriously. What a night.

I am currently sitting outside of Psychobabble... My computer is at home so I am borrowing Suziey's, she is writing in a real paper journal (crazy, I know.)
I still haven't hear from Sony.... I am a little stressed out about it. I felt so after the interview and I have heard nothing but positive things from all the people I know who work in the company. I had 4 people recommend me for the job... or at least they said they did. I know that at least 3 of them actually talked to the people who would be my bosses. One of them talked to them after they met with me and said they had told her that they really liked me. Good, right? They told me that they were going to be interviewing through last week. Tomorrow is the previous person's last day... I still haven't heard anything. This makes me really nervous. I am hoping that they will at least call me to let me know that I don't have it if that is the case. Who knows though.
Tomorrow, I have an interview with a marketing company in Beverly Hills. This company is known for band street marketing and events. They work with several major labels and may even be taking over the lifestyle marketing for Sony since they laid all of us off. I also know people who work for this company and have put in good words for me. I have to go home in a bit and get ready... print out resumes, mapquest the place, sleep, etc. I am nervous about it.
I am still hoping for the Sony job. At this point though, I am pretty much just excited that any job in the music industry would hire me. It will be amazing to get out of Bose.
There has also been drama with friends that has put a damper in my support system and has made me... well... sad. I hate to see my friends hurt. It sucks. Two of my friends have heartache and one just got laid off. I wish I could make everyone better.
Well, Suziey is reading now and I am sure she would like to have her 'puter back so that she can submit herself for roles and get famous... Then she can buy a beautiful house in the hills and let me be her cook or something (we all know I couldn't be the housecleaner.)
Hope everyone is well... Hopefully I will have good news soon.

I was thinking about the fact that I have barely gotten a chance to talk to some of my favorite people recently so I figured I would sit down and write a little tid-bit of info for you to... well... read.

1. I am waiting to hear back about a job that I really really really really really want... PLEASE cross your fingers for me! It would be such a big break if I got this.

2. I got (not one, but) THREE beautiful old 35mm cameras for christmas. Be prepared to have a camera in your face pretty much constantly for the next couple of months.

3. I have been flirting with a guy like we are in elementary school... I like it.

4. I am happy with the choice to leave my job security and move into what is becoming less of a dream and more of a reality.

5. I miss some people...

6. I feel that big things are in store for me and all of my friends this year and I can't wait for us to take this journey together...

7. I am just generally happy right now.

I hope everyone is well and had a great holiday. I can't wait to see all of you again soon :)

Today the Lifestyle Marketing department of Sony Music Label Group dissolved.... Therefore, I no longer work for Sony.

I actually cried on the phone with one of my bosses today. I am so sad to see it end. I really feel like I could have done so many amazing things, I just wish I could have had more time.

On a happier note, now I will have time to clean my apartment.



Buying CDs saves peoples jobs. I can't blame it all on that, but I know that that would help. Please don't steal music.

I was late to work this morning... followed by me giving my notice to Bose.

Now, to find a new job...